Chchchchanges...

I have not been blogging regularly. I thought about it, but decided there wasn't much to say. Bo is great, except for the fact that he sometimes shows evidence of becoming a moody teen, and he logs over 3000 text messages a month--I am still trying to figure out how I feel about that, proud, worried, scared? There are few things still percolating in that story, like our concern that his monitoring may be overly intensive now that we are certain we know what he has, but other than that, I figured the literary well had run dry.

My friends have finally convinced me otherwise. I have had two years of hell, really. I am still trying to figure out why the universe chose to deliver me the nastiest karma pie ever, all at once. Was I really that terrible in my life? I suppose that considering I have felt incredibly blessed and lucky, but I have not been totally innocent of wrongdoing, in thought, word, AND deed, I deserved some comeuppance, but all at once? So, after wallowing in sadness, fear and uncertainty for over a year, I decided to let it out. Bad things happen even to the best people, and maybe if I write about it, we will all find ways to make dealing with it easier.

But that's all for today, too much to untangle quickly, but I figured if I said I will, then I will. However, in the short term, work is keeping me busy, plus it is combine season and I have a football player to feed--don't you wish you needed 5000 calories a day? Thanks for inspiring me!